I shared a little bit about why I chose this verse in About Me, but I wanted to tell you some more of the story:
This verse found its way to me my junior year of high school. That spring was a rough year for my family for lots of reasons, and hard for me because I was busier than I had ever been (little did I know haha, wish I had that much time now!) I was involved in One Act, Academic UIL, my youth group's worship team, softball, concert band, as well as being the president of my class and helping to organize prom that year. It was a lot.
Well, I also participated in Bible Drill with our church, and one of the passages we had to memorize was Psalm 139:1-8. And wow, did it speak to me:
"Lord You have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I stand up;
You understand my thoughts from far away.
You observe my travels and my rest;
You are aware of all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue,
You know all about it, Lord.
You have encircled me;
You have placed Your hand on me.
This extraordinary knowledge is beyond me.
It is lofty; I am unable to reach it.
Where can I go to escape Your Spirit?
Where can I flee from Your presence?
If I go up to heaven, You are there,
If I make my bed in Sheol, You are there.
If I take up the wings of dawn,
Or dwell at the end of the sea,
Even there Your hand will lead me,
Your right hand will hold onto me."
I don't think I'll ever stop needing to hear this truth. I need it every moment.
God is in it until the end. When He says He will, He does, when He says He has, He did. When He says His right hand will hold on to me, He means it. When He says He has placed His hand on me, I know that truly, He has. When He says He has encircled me, surely He is all around me. When He says He knows me, He really does know me.
Because of these truths I can rest knowing that no matter where I am, no matter how I feel, He is constant. He holds onto me, His hand is over me, He is all around me, He knows me.
That phrase used to scare me, and it still does in a healthy way. But I used to think, oh no, He knows everything. Now I think, praise God, He knows everything! And loves. me. still.
I am free. That's what this passage reminds me, and that's why I've made it the heart of this little blog. In the hand of the Father, I am free to love and be loved, free to be fully myself now that I'm found in Him, free to give and to receive, free to feel emotions - because He is my Rock.
And should I find myself even at the end of the sea, He will hold fast.