Something I didn't know until recently was that Job is the oldest book in the Bible. I think it's interesting that our communication from God starts with suffering, so much suffering.
Sometimes as a heart check in my relationships I ask myself, what if I lost this person? What if this person turned their back on me? What if this person moved across the world? What is this person let me down? Would I be devastated? Would I be broken? Or would I have hope?
And that's just the one person. Job lost everything. And God never revelaed to him why he had to endure what he did. He only replies with:
"Where were you when I established the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding. Who fixed its dimensions? Certainly you know!"
(I love God's snarkiness here)
Where was I? I go back to this passage so many times, but it's never spoken to me like it is now. Where was I when the Lord established the earth? When He called everything we know into being with a word? When He imagined gravity and formed the massive spheres of energy we call stars? When He numbered the snowflakes and knew each one?
I was in the heart of the Holy One. I was in the plans of Good. I was in secret in I Am. I was hidden in my Father.
How vast He is and how small I am!
"I know that You can do anything and no plan of yours can be thwarted. You asked, "'Who is this who conceals My counsel with ignorance?'"
Who am I?
"Surely I speak about things I do not understand, things too wonderful for me to know...I heard rumors about you, but NOW MY EYES HAVE SEEN YOU."
Job suffered immensely, yet He said these things he spoke of were too "wonderful for [him] to know." He saw wonder in His suffering, in the mystery of why God allowed such things. He didn't claim/defend his own righteousness. He glorified God whose plan cannot "be thwarted."
And Job was righteous. Yet only after all of this tragedy, this heartbreak, did He see the face of God. "Now my eyes have seen You." And though he hardly know what in the world the Lord was doing, He saw God's person - His majesty, sovereignty, and power - and somehow, His goodness revealed in His creation and His love. God was still there. Always had been.